ENOUGH IS ENOUGH PART 2

    NOW , AFTER I HAD MY BABY SOME THINGS WERE SAID THAT I DIDN'T FIND OUT UNTIL JUST 2MONTHS AGO BUT WE'LL GET TO THAT LATER.  

   AFTER I HAD MY SON MIND YOU HIS MOTHER STILL 9MONTHS LATER HAS NOT CAME TO SEE HIM NOT ONCE. MY AUNT LIVES ALL THE WAY IN ATL AND CAME DOWN HERE TO SEE HIM , BUT SHE LIVES ALL OF TEN , FIFTEEN MINUTES AWAY AND HASN'T BEEN TO SEE HIM NOT ONCE. AS A MATTER OF FACT SHE HASN'T BEEN TO NEITHER ONE OF OUR APARTMENTS EVER. 

      SO, A MONTH AFTER HE'S BEEN BORN WE TAKE HIM DOWN HIS MOTHERS WAY TO SEE HER BECAUSE HE WANTED TO. SO AS SHE'S HOLDING HIM I LOOK UP AND SHE HAS HER WHOLE BARE TITTY OUT IN MY SONS FACE PRETENDING AS SHE'S BREASTFEEDING HIM. IN HER DEFENSE SHE PROBABLY THOUGHT THAT THIS WAS COOL , BECAUSE SHE PLAYS WITH HER KIDS LIKE THAT YOU KNOW. HOWEVER I DID NOT APPROVE OF THIS WHAT SO EVER . I WAS FURIOUS. OMG !!!! I DID NOT WANT TO BE DISRESPECTFUL SO I TOLD HIM  TO SAY SOMETHING, CAN YOU BELIEVE HE JUST LAUGHED. THIS WAS THE LAST STRAW !!! I HAD ENOUGH OF ALLOWING HIM TO ALLOW THEM TO DISRESPECT ME. SO LATER ON WHEN WE GOT HOME, I CUSSED HIS ASS OUT.  YUP I SURE DID.  HE SAID HE WENT TO HER AND SAID SOMETHING AND SHE TRIED TO ACT AS IF SHE DIDN'T REMEMBER DOING IT, BUT WHATEVER.


  THEN THE ULTIMATE PETTINESS . HIS EX GIRLFRIEND CAME DOWN HERE TO SEE HER FROM FLORIDA WHICH IS COOL , FEEL ME THATS NONE OF MY BUSINESS HOWEVER IT'S THE SHIT THAT HAPPENED AFTER THAT PISSED ME OFF.  FIRST , HER AND I WASN'T FRIENDS ON FACEBOOK AT THE TIME. SO SHE TAGS EVERYONE IN ALL THE PICTURES TO MAKE SURE I CAN SEE THEM, TALKING ABOUT SHE MISSED UUUSSSSS SO SHE CAME TO SEE UUSSSS WITH US IN ALL CAPITAL LETTERS. THEN SHE POSTS PICS OF HER DAUGHTER CALLING THE LITTLE GIRL HER GRAND DAUGHTER, PUTTING " GRAND DAUGHTER" IN ALL CAPITAL LETTERS, TRYING TO BE FUNNY TOWARDS ME.  WHEN SHE DON'T EVEN GIVE A DAMN ABOUT HER REAL GRAND SON , BUT WHATEVER.  THEN I'M TOLD THAT SHE INVITES HIS GIRLFRIEND OVER TO THEIR GRANDMOTHERS FOR THANKSGIVING DINNER. THE GIRLFRIEND SAYS NO CAUSE SHE DON'T WANT ME AND HIM FEELING NO TYPE OF WAY. SO THE MOM REPLIES " I DONT CARE HOW THEY GON FEEL , I WANT THEM TO FEEL SOME TYPE OF WAY".  THEN SHE CALLS ONE OF HER DAUGHTERS TALKIN BOUT YOU SEE WHAT I POSTED YUP I SURE DID POST IT , I WANT HER TO FEEL SOME TYPE OF WAY.  I TOLD HIS GRANDMOTHER I'LL MAKE THE BAKED BEANS BUT I'M NOT STAYING. I LOVE HIS GRANDMOTHER SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN NICE TO ME. SHE SAYS " TRACY DON'T LET HER STOP YOU FROM DOING WHAT YOU WANT TO DO. SHE KNOW SHE AIN'T RIGHT FOR THAT. I SAID GRANDMA YOU'RE RIGHT BUT WHAT I WANT TO DO IS HAVE A GOOD TIME, BE AROUND GOOD VIBES , SO THATS WHAT I'M GOING TO DO AT MY MOTHERS HOUSE. HOWEVER EVERYONE WAS POSTING PICTURES AND EVERYTHING OF HER , WHICH THEY CAN DO FEEL ME THATS THEM . BUT MY WHOLE THING IS NOT ONE OF THEM SPOKE UP . NOT ONE OF THEM STOOD UP AS A WOMAN AND SAID NAH THIS AIN'T COOL , YOU CAME TO SEE US NOW GO SPEND THANKS GIVING WITH YOUR FAMILY. LIKE NOBODY EVER STOPPED TO THINK WELL HOW WOULD TRACY FEEL. THEY ALL JUST GOT SUCKED INTO THAT BS AND RODE THE WAVE. BUT IF THEIR BOYFRIENDS MOTHER INVITED THEIR BOYFRIENDS EX OVER FOR THANKSGIVING DINNER THEY WOULD ALL BE SALTY ASF, AND WOULD HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY. BUT SINCE IT'S NOT THEM THEY DON'T CARE. AS A WOMAN I WOULD NEVER ALLOW MY MOM OR MY BROTHER TO DO NO SHXT LIKE THAT IDGAF HOW LONG SHE WAS AROUND, IF THEY DON'T HAVE NO KIDS TOGETHER IT AIN'T NO TIES PERIOD. BUT HEY THATS JUST ME. THEN I HEARD SHE SUPPOSEDLY SAID SHE WAS INVITING HER DOWN HERE AGAIN AROUND MY SONS BDAY. IDK IF THERE'S ANY TRUTH TO THAT BUT THAT'LL BE THE DAY ALL RESPECT GOES OUT THE WINDOW.




NOW REGARDLESS OF ALL THE BS. I HAVE A CARING HEART  AND I STILL TRY TO SEE THE GOOD IN PEOPLE. SO I DEAL WITH IT. I KNOW THAT HE LOVES HIS MOTHER SO I TELL HIM , I'M GOING TO GO TALK TO HER WOMAN TO WOMAN BY MYSELF, SO WE CAN GET THIS OVER WITH BECAUSE I'M TIRED OF THE DRAMA . I'VE NEVER BEEN THROUGH THIS TYPE OF SITUATION SO I DON'T KNOW HOW ELSE TO DEAL WITH IT. I CAN'T TALK TO ANYONE ABOUT IT BECAUSE THE ONLY PERSON I SHOULD BE ABLE TO TALK ABOUT IT TO , NEVER WANTS TO TALK ABOUT IT SO I HARBOR ALL OF THIS UNNECESSARY STRESS , AND IT'S TAKING A TOLL ON ME.  SO I DRIVE DOWN TO HER HOME AND WE TALK. AS WE'RE TALKING I FEEL LIKE OK MAYBE THIS IS THE END AND THIS IS ALL WE HAD TO DO FROM JUMP. BUUUUUUUTTTTTTTT THEN SHE PROCEEDS TO SAY " THE REASON I SAID RAMIR AIN'T HIS BABY". 



    I COMPLETELY BLANKED OUT . I DIDN'T HEAR ANYTHING SHE SAID AFTER THAT BECAUSE I NEVER KNEW SHE EVEN SAID THAT. I COULDN'T WAIT TO GO HOME AND ASK HIM WTF WAS SHE TALKING ABOUT. AS ALL THESE THOUGHTS RUN THROUH MY HEAD AND ANGER BUILDS UP I HAVE TO KEEP MY COOL . I CAN'T LET HER KNOW THAT I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THAT SHE HAD SAID THAT. SO I LET HER CONTINUE TALKING . SHE PRAYED FOR ME WE SAID WE LOVE EACH OTHER AND I FLEW OUT THAT DOOR SO FAST. AS SOON AS I WALK IN THE DOOR OF OUR HOME , HE  ASKED ME WHAT WE WAS TALKING ABOUT.


    I SAID THE BETTER QUESTION HERE IS AS CALM AS POSSIBLE 'WHY THE FUXX DIDN'T YOU TELL ME SHE SAID RAMIR WASN'T YOUR SON" . HE WAS SITTIN THERE STUCK FOR A MINUTE, THEN HE SAID BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO HURT YOUR FEELINGS. I'M SORRY BUT THATS NOT A GOOD ENOUGH REASON FOR ME. ALL THE SHIT I'VE PUT UP WITH AND BEEN THROUGH WITH YOU , YOU CAN'T EVEN GIVE ME SOME HONESTY. FUCC THAT GET OFF THIS GAME SO WE CAN DISCUSS THIS. SO AFTER I CALMED DOWN I SAID SO WHEN WAS THIS.  HE SAID THE SAME DAY MY SON WAS BORN. MY SON WAS 7MONTHS WHEN I FOUND THIS OUT, SO IM LIKE DAMN YOU KEPT A SECRET FOR 7MONTHS , SO YOU REALLY WAS NEVER GOING TO TELL ME. THEN I'M LIKE DAMN SO THATS WHY NONE OF YOUR SISTERS BESIDES 2 OF THEM CALL AND ASK ABOUT RAMIR, OR ANYTHING BECAUSE YO MOM IS GOING AROUND TELLING EVERY ONE THAT HE'S NOT YOUR SON. OK THATS WASSUP , AND I BET YO ASS DIDN'T EVEN DEFEND ME.  HE SAID HE DID BUT WHATEVER. FIRST OFF IM NOT A HOE OR NONE OF THAT SO IDK WHERE SHE WOULD GET THAT FROM . SO I ASKED HIM HOW SHE SAID IT , AND HE SAID THEY WERE ON THE PHONE AND SHE GON BUST OUT CRYING TRYING TO MAKE IT SEEM REAL TALKING ABOUT THATS NOT YOUR SON. HE SAID HE YELLED AT HER AND TOLD HER YES IT WAS AND BLAH BLAH BLAH. HE SAID SHE HURT HIS FEELINGS BECAUSE HE FELT LIKE SHE TRIED TO TAKE HIS SON AWAY FROM HIM. SHE TOLD HIM DONT TAG HER IN PICTURES OF RAMIR , BUT THEN AS HE GOT OLDER SHE WRITES HIM ON FACEBOOK AND SAYS " I WISH YOU WOULD TAG ME IN PICTURES OF RAMIR AT LEAST SOMETIMES. " I'M JUST THINKING LIKE FOR WHAT , SO YOU CAN GET ON SOCIAL MEDIA AND PRETEND AS IF YOU LOVE HIM OH SO MUCH WHEN TRUTH IS MY SON IS 9MONTHS AND SHE STILL HASN'T BEEN TO SEE HIM OR NOTHING. THE ONLY TIME SHE SEES HIM IS IF WE'RE DOWN THAT WAY OR IF WE'RE AT FAMILY EVENTS. BUT HEY IT IS WHAT IT IS. 


      WE RECENTLY HAD ONE LAST CONVERSATION AND THE ONLY THING SHE KEPT SAYING THE WHOLE TIME WAS "YOU'RE MY SON" , " THAT'S MY SON", YOU ONLY GET ONE MOTHER JUST ALL THIS TYPE OF SHXT. I'M JUST THINKING IN MY HEAD LIKE YOU KEEP SAYING THAT LIKE I WANT TO BE HIS MOM. AIN'T NOBODY TRYING TO TAKE YOUR PLACE. DON'T NO FEMALE WANT TO BE WITH NO MAN SHE HAS TO BE A MOTHER TO, THATS A TURN OFF ACTUALLY. I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT MANS MOTHER EVER. 



NOW LETS MAKE SOME THINGS CLEAR. IDC IF SHE LIKES ME OR NOT HONESTLY. A LOT OF THESE SITUATIONS DID HURT MY FEELINGS , HOWEVER IM GOOD. BUT THE FACT THAT SHE DOESN'T LIKE NOR CARE ABOUT MY SON IT RUBBED ME THE WRONG WAY. LIKE MY SON HASN'T DONE ANYTHING TO ANYONE. MIND YOU BEFORE I HAD MY SON WE DID EVERYTHING FOR EVERYBODY, ALWAYS HAD EVERYONES KIDS, KEPT THEM FOR DAYS AND DAYS AT A TIME. WOULD YOU BELIEVE NO-ONE HAS ASKED FOR MY SON TO SPEND THE NIGHT WITH THEM AND AIN'T GOT HIM NOTHING SINCE THE BABY SHOWER.  I'VE NEVER DISRESPECTED HIS MOTHER AT ALL PERIOD. NO MATTER WHAT LIES SHE TELLS PEOPLE, ON MY LIFE I HAVE NEVER DONE ANYTHING TO DISRESPECT HER, SIMPLY BECAUSE I'M NOT A DISRESPECTFUL PERSON.  AND ANYONE THAT REALLY KNOWS ME CAN VOUCH FOR THAT. I TELL HIM ALL THE TIME , LOVE YOUR MOTHER, TALK TO YOUR MOTHER, DON'T EVER LET ANYONE STOP YOU FROM LOVING YOUR MOTHER. JUST DON'T LET ANYONE CONTROL YOU EITHER.

I HAVE NEVER TRIED TO TAKE HIM AWAY FROM HIS MOM , NONE OF THAT. I TELL HIM EVERY YEAR MAKE SURE HE GET HER SOMETHING FOR HER BIRTHDAY AND MOTHERS DAY , ALTHOUGH THE LAST GIFTS SHE SAID SHE WAS GIVING AWAY, AND SHE TOOK TWO THINGS BACK AND GOT THE MONEY INSTEAD. BUT HEY IT IS WHAT IT IS. I STILL TELL HIM MAKE SURE HE ALWAYS TELLS HIS MOTHER HE LOVES HER AND ALL THAT. I DON'T EVEN DISCUSS NONE OF THE NEGATIVE THINGS WITH HIM. HE'S NOT THERE FOR ME EMOTIONALLY THE WAY HE SHOULD BE.


     REGARDLESS OF EVERYTHING I HONESTLY LOVE THEM ALL. BECAUSE THAT'S JUST THE TYPE OF PERSON I AM. I'M NEVER GOING TO DISRESPECT HIS MOM NO MATTER WHAT BECAUSE I WAS RAISED BETTER. SHE MAY BE INTIMIDATED BY ME BECAUSE I'M A STRONG WOMAN AND I AINT GOING FOR THE BULL. WHATEVER THE REASONS ARE I'M STILL AND ALWAYS WILL BE A GOOD HEARTED PERSON. MORAL OF THE STORY DON'T EVER LET ANYONE CHANGE YOU FROM BEING WHO YOU ARE. DON'T DO TO SOMEONE WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO YOU. DON'T EVER BECOME WHAT HURT YOU . LET IT JUST SHOW YOU EXACTLY WHAT YOU DON'T WANT TO BE.  TREAT OTHERS AS YOU WOULD WANT TO BE TREATED BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE DAY MISERY LOVES COMPANY. JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE ELSE IS MISERABLE WITH THEIR OWN LIFE THEY'LL TRY TO RAIN ON YOUR PARADE. DON'T STOOP TO THEIR LEVEL BECAUSE IF YOU DO YOU'RE ONLY BLOCKING YOUR BLESSINGS.  NOW I'M NOT SAYING JUST SIT THERE AND CONTINUE TO ALLOW SOMEONE TO DISRESPECT YOU. JUST KNOW YOUR LIMITS , AND REMOVE YOURSELF FROM THE SITUATION IF YOU HAVE TO. JUST MAKE SURE THROUGH IT ALL DON'T LET ANYONE TAKE YOU OUT OF YOUR CHARACTER.