ENOUGHT IS ENOUGH PART 1

    " I DON'T THINK THE BABY IS YOURS " . YOU NEED TO GO GET A BLOOD TEST". 

  " WHAT YOU MEAN THAT IS MY SON , IF YOU REALLY MUST KNOW SHE DID THIS FOR ME". REPLIED AN ANGRY SON.



   I'VE RECENTLY GIVEN BIRTH TO A HANDSOME SON 9MONTHS AGO , AUGUST 8TH, 2014. HIS NAME IS RAMIR N. ALLEN. HE'S THE MOST HAPPY BABY ANYONE COULD EVER MEET. EVERY WHERE WE GO SOMEONE CALLS HIM AN ANGEL. HE'S LOVED BY MANY, UNFORTUNATELY NOT BY ALL ( AS IN FAMILY ). BEFORE I GET INTO THAT THOUGH LET ME TAKE YOU ON THE RIDE OF WHAT I BEEN THROUGH.



      FROM THE DAY MY CHILDS FATHER AND I OFFICIALLY GOT TOGETHER IT HAS BEEN SO MUCH DRAMA WITH THE WOMEN IN HIS FAMILY. EVERY LITTLE THING HE HAS DONE FOR ME HAS BEEN A PROBLEM. BUT , SEE HE KEPT ME IN THE DARK ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT WAS GOING ON. I DIDN'T FIND OUT ABOUT ANYTHING UNTIL ONE DAY AS WE WERE WATCHING A VIDEO ON HIS PHONE A TEXT MESSAGE POPPED UP FROM HIS SISTER WITH MY NAME IN IT. SO ME BEING ME I PRETENDED AS IF I DIDN'T SEE ANYTHING BECAUSE I KNEW HE WOULDN'T TELL ME WHAT WAS GOING ON, AND HE WOULD DELETE THE MESSAGES OUT HIS PHONE AND I WOULD NEVER KNOW.  SO LATER THAT NIGHT WHEN HE FELL ASLEEP I GOT HIS PHONE AND FOUND OUT THE UGLY TRUTH. TRUTH IS NONE OF HIS SISTERS OR MOTHER FOR THAT MATTER EVEN LIKED ME. FURTHER MORE THEY WERE JEALOUS OF ALL THE THINGS THEY "THOUGHT" HE WAS DOING FOR ME. LET ME TELL YOU SOME OF THE QUOTES OF MESSAGES I SEEN IN HIS PHONE.


" ALL I'M SAYING IS THE SAME WAY YOU FLEW TO GET TRACY FROM SCHOOL SHOULD'VE BEEN THE SAME WAY YOU FLEW TO GET YOUR SISTER FROM WORK, IM JUST SAYING LOVE US LIKE YOU LOVE HER "

" LOOK AT HER WITH HER NEW OUTFIT ON , THINKING SHE ALL THAT , JUST WALKING AROUND CLICK CLACKING IN HER BOOTS "


" YEA MY FRIEND SHADEENA WANTS TO TALK TO YOU , SHE SAID YOU SEXY AND WANTS ME TO GIVE HER YOUR NUMBER , IS THAT COOL "

" YOUR EX GIRLFRIENDS BABY LOOK JUST LIKE YOU "

" THATS NOT HER HOUSE HE JUST PUT IT IN HER NAME BECAUSE HE CAN'T GET NOTHING IN HIS NAME RIGHT NOW, HE GON GET HIS RECORD CLEARED THEN HE LEAVING. "


" THEM AIN'T HER CARS MY SON BOUGHT THOSE HE JUST LET HER DRIVE THEM." 


" I TOLD YOU NOT TO GET HER PREGNANT."


" SHE'S DISRESPECTFUL "

" OH I CAN'T GET NO MONEY BUT YOU GIVING HER EVERY DOLLAR YOU GET " .


   I CAN GO ON AND ON FOREVER BUT THESE ARE QUOTES FROM HIS SISTERS AND HIS MOTHER. YES , I WAS PISSED ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT WAS SAID HOWEVER , WHAT PISSED ME OFF THE MOST WAS THE FACT THAT NOT ONCE DID HE HAVE MY BACK, LIKE EVER. SO THEM NOT KNOWING I KNEW EVERYTHING I DID I DECIDED TO KEEP MY EYES OPEN AND REALLY SEE SHIT FOR WHAT IT WAS. I DIDN'T EVEN TELL HIM I KNEW ANYTHING AT FIRST BECAUSE I WANTED TO BE AROUND WHEN COMMENTS WERE MADE SO I CAN SEE FOR MYSELF HOW HE REACTED TO THEM. AS TIME WENT BY I BEGAN TO SEE MORE AND MORE HOW WICKED THE WHOLE SITUATION WAS. I'VE HELD MY TONGUE FOR SO LONG OUT OF RESPECT FOR HIM BECAUSE THATS THE KIND OF PERSON I AM BUT I'M SO TIRED OF THE DISRESPECT. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH !!!!!!


   THE RING LEADER OF IT ALL IS HIS MOTHER.  SEE THE PROBLEM WITH HER IS THAT SHE HAS SOME SENSE OF ENTITLEMENT OVER HER CHILDREN. SHE DOESN'T WANT THEM DOING ANYTHING THAT SHE DOESN'T HAVE ANY CONTROL OVER. SHE FEELS AS IF JUST BECAUSE HE'S HER SON HE OWES HER SOMETHING , WHICH HE DOESN'T. GRANTED YOU'RE HIS MOTHER AND HE LOVES YOU AND I LOVE HIM FOR THE WAY THAT HE LOVES HIS MOTHER. HOWEVER NO ONE IN THIS WORLD OWES ANYONE ANYTHING IDC WHO THEY ARE. SHE HAS DONE SO MUCH IN IUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP THAT I'M FINALLY TIRED AND SICK OF IT ALL.

    FOR STARTERS AFTER I REALIZED THAT SHE DIDN'T LIKE ME TO BEGIN WITH. I BEGAN TO STAY AWAY. I'M NOT THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO DISRESPECTS HER ELDERS, BUT I'M ALSO NOT THE TYPE OF PERSON TO PRETEND THAT I'M COOL WITH SOMEONE AND I'M NOT, IT'LL READ ALL OVER MY FACE. SO IN ORDER TO AVOID ANY DRAMA I JUST STAYED AWAY. ANYTIME WE WOULD GO DOWN HER AREA BECAUSE HE WANTED TO SEE HIS MOTHER I WOULD SIT IN THE CAR OR GO TO HIS OLDEST SISTERS HOUSE. BESIDES HIS FEMALE COUSINS SHE'S THE ONLY ONE THAT HAS NEVER GIVEN ME A PROBLEM. 

    AFTER A WHILE HE ASKED ME WHY I DON'T GO TO HIS MOTHERS , AND I FINALLY REVEALED EVERYTHING I KNEW. I ALSO TOLD HIM THAT THE FACT THAT HE KNEW HOW THEY REALLY FELT ABOUT ME AND NOT ONLY NOT STOOD UP FOR ME, BUT WOULD KEEP ASKING ME TO COME AROUND PEOPLE THAT YOU KNOW TALK ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK REALLY HAS ME READY TO GIVE UP ON EVERYTHING. SEE HE'S BEEN UNDER THE HIS MOM FOR SO LONG , SHE'S HAD CONTROL OVER HIM FOR SO LONG THAT HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO BE A MAN. HE DIDN'T UNDERSTAND THAT WHAT WAS GOING ON WAS WRONG BECAUSE IT'S BEEN GOING ON ALL HIS LIFE. WHAT WOMEN WANTS TO TELL THE MAN SHE LOVES ANYTHING ABOUT HIS MOTHER. SO I LEFT IT IN GODS HANDS. I TOLD HIM IN DUE TIME YOU'LL SEE THE ERROR OF HER WAYS.

ONE DAY SHE MADE A STATUS AND TAGGED ALL HER KIDS IN IT AND ASKED THEM TO SPEND THE NIGHT , THEN SHE GON TAG HIS EX GIRLFRIEND IN IT ASKING HER TO SPEND THE NIGHT AS WELL. MIND YOU HIS EX GIRLFRIEND LIVES ALL THE WAY IN FLORIDA. SHE WAS ONLY TRYING TO BE FUNNY TOWARDS ME . HE NEVER SAID ANYTHING TO HER ABOUT THAT.


THEN SHE GOES AROUND TELLING PEOPLE I'M DISRESPECTFUL. SHE DON'T LIKE ME. THE ONLY REASON HER SON HAS A PLACE WITH ME IS BECAUSE HE CAN'T GET ONE IN HIS NAME.  THE CARS THAT WE HAVE HE BOUGHT THEM. AND HE BUYS ME EVERYTHING WE HAVE , AND HE'S THE ONLY ONE PAYING BILLS. FIRST OF ALL LET ME START OFF BY SAYING THIS IS OUR HOME. WE BOTH PAY BILLS AND WE BOTH DO WHAT WE HAVE TO DO FOR OUR HOME. SECOND OF ALL I'M NOT SURE WHY THEY THINK THIS MAN IS RICH ENOUGH TO BUY TWO DAMN CARS LIKE REALLY ??? . I BOUGHT THE RED CAR WE HAVE AND HE BOUGHT THE WHITE ONE. THIRD OF ALL I HAVE A JOB , I'VE ALWAYS HAD A JOB SINCE I WAS OLD ENOUGH TO WORK. I HAVE NEVER DEPENDED ON A MANS HAND FOR SHIT BECAUSE MY MOTHER AND MY FATHER FOR THAT MATTER TOLD ME NOT TO. SO EVERYTHING I HAVE IS THANKS TO ME AS WELL AS SOME THINGS FROM HIM.  HOWEVER EVEN IF HE DID BUY ME EVERYTHING I OWNED SO WHAT . THATS NONE OF ANYONES BUSINESS. AS MUCH AS HE DOES FOR ME I DO FOR HIM. THE ONLY TIME HE'S EVER EVEN CONTACTED IS WHEN THEY NEED SOMETHING. THE ONLY ONE THAT CALLS IM TO GENUINELY SEE WHAT HE'S DOING IS HIS OLDEST SISTER AND HIS OLDEST NIECE. HOWEVER HE'S NEVER SAID ANYTHING TO HER ABOUT THAT.


     THEN MY WHOLE PREGNANCY SHE WAS BEING SO NEGATIVE. WHEN HE CALLED AND TOLD HER I WAS PREGNANT SHE DIDN'T KNOW SHE WAS ON SPEAKER PHONE AND THAT I COULD HEAR HER. SHE WASN'T EVEN HAPPY FOR HER SON , AND HE WAS SO EXCITED. THE FIRST THING OUT HER MOUTH WAS " MMMMM TOLD YOU NOT TO GET HER PREGNANT."  I'M JUST THINKING LIKE DAMN WHAT HAVE I EVER DONE TO HER FOR HER TO FEEL SO MUCH HATRED FOR ME. ANYTIME SHE'S EVER NEEDED ANYTHING FROM HIM HE CALLS ME AND I ALWAYS GIVE HIM THE MONEY FOR HER. BIRTHDAY GIFTS , MOTHERS DAY GIFTS EVERYTHING. I'VE EVEN WENT OUT MY WAY FOR HER DAUGHTERS. THEY CALL HIM ASKING HIM FOR MONEY AND HALF THE TIME IT'S COMING OUT OF MY POCKET , AND VICE VERSA . I'VE NEVER GIVEN HER A REASON NOT TO LIKE ME AND I'LL SAY THAT UNTIL THE DAY I DIE.

  AT MY BABY SHOWER I FOUND OUT THAT SHE DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO COME. THE LAST WORDS OUT HER MOUTH BEFORE SHE CAME TO MY BABY SHOWER WAS " MMMMMM LET ME SEE HOW THIS MESS IS GOING TO BE." SMH. THEN WHEN SHE GOT THEIR SHE WALKS AROUND TELLING EVERYONE SHE READY TO GO OR ABOUT TO LEAVE. AND NOT TO MENTION SHE DIDN'T BUY NOT ONE GIFT FOR MY SON.


   THEN THE DAY OF DELIVERY I TOLD RICKY LIKE FOR REAL FOR REAL IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU IT'S NOT ABOUT NOBODY BUT ME , AND WHO I FEEL COMFORTABLE WITH BEING IN THE ROOM WITH ME , WHILE I DELIVER. BUT I STILL TOLD HIM YOUR MOTHER IS ALLOWED TO BE IN THE ROOM BECAUSE I KNOW YOU WOULD WANT YOUR MOTHER TO SEE YOUR SON BEING BORN , AND I WOULD NEVER DEPRIVE YOU OF THAT. HOWEVER AS I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL ROOM GETTING CHECKED I RECEIVED A TEXT MESSAGE STATING THAT HIS MOTHER SAID SHE DIDN'T WANT TO BE IN THE ROOM ANYWAY. THAT DID HURT MY FEELINGS IM NOT GOING TO LIE BUT IT WAS WHAT IT WAS.  THEN SHE ENDED UP GETTING PULLED OVER AND WENT TO JAIL THAT DAY. SO WHILE I'M IN THE HOSPITAL SHE'S CALLING MY PHONE BECAUSE I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS MONEY ON MY PHONE. HE'S RUNNING AROUND GETTING MY MONEY TO GET HER OUT OF JAIL. NOT TO MENTION HE SHOULD BE THERE FOR ME AND HIS SON THATS ABOUT TO BE BROUGHT INTO THIS WORLD. BUT I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING I LET HIM DO HIM . HOWEVER WHEN SHE WAS FINALLY RELEASED SHE GON CALL HIM AND ASK HIM TO COME GET HER. SO HE COMES IN THE HOSPITAL ROOM TALKING ABOUT HE'S BOUT TO LEAVE TO GO PICK HER UP . I SAID " UM NO YOU'RE NOT  , YOU HAVE A SON THAT COULD BE HERE ANY MINUTE EVERYBODY ELSE HAS A CAR THAT CAN GO PICK HER UP YOU BETTER NOT LEAVE THIS HOSPITAL ROOM." SO HE CALLS HER AND SAYS I'M ABOUT TO HAVE SUCH AND SUCH COME PICK YOU UP SHE SAYS " NO , I WANT YOU TO PICK ME UP IDC . " HE SAYS NO AND HIS SISTER GOES TO PICK HER UP.   MY THING IS LIKE DAMN, YOU KNOW THIS MAN HAS A WHOLE BABY ON THE WAY , AND YOU REALLY TRIED TO TAKE HIM AWAY FROM SEEING HIS SON BORN. THATS REALLY SELFISH TO ME.



STILL HE HASN'T SAID ANYTHING ABOUT ANYTHING..............